Sunday, May 20, 2012

The Graduation

Michelle graduated today with Summa Cum Laude, and delivered a graduation speech with deep philosophical reflections....

Philosophy means, literally, “love of wisdom”. So what kind of wisdom have I gained from my education in philosophy, and why is it valuable? Well, I can tell you this much – I still don’t know why we’re here, I can’t tell you what happens after death, and I am no closer to understanding the meaning of life. In fact, if anything, I am more confused now than I was at the outset of my college career. But this confusion no longer feels disorienting or overwhelming; rather, it feels like guidance. Ultimately, I haven’t developed a ‘philosophy’ of life; I haven’t discovered rules by which to live. Instead, I’ve come to realize that it is precisely a life rich with unanswered questions that has the most direction.  

What does it mean to have lived well, and how do we do it? Do we devote ourselves to acquisition and development of virtues? Do we live in accordance with a categorical imperative? Do we work to maximize the happiness of those around us? Or do we work to maximize our own? To me, these all seem to be compelling suggestions, and four years of philosophical education have brought me no closer to singling out one particular answer. Perhaps only living will teach me how to live well. But philosophy has given me prescriptions with which to experiment: for example, Aristotle’s belief that excellence is not an act, but a habit; Kant’s command that we must never treat men merely as means, but rather as ends in themselves; Peter Singer’s challenge to recognize our moral obligation to perform so-called “acts of charity”. I don’t think any of us can say for sure how we ought to live now so that in the future, we’ll feel confident that we’ve lived well. But these are starting points from which I can develop my own vision of how I’d like to live, so that in my future, I’ll have fewer doubts, if any, about whether or not I’ve done right by myself.

Courses in epistemology and skepticism have led me to questions regarding knowledge. What constitutes ‘knowledge’? What does it amount to? What are its limits? Philosophy has taught me that our knowledge rarely, if ever, satisfies the criterion of certainty. Though we go through our daily lives taking numerous facts for granted, I’ve learned that it doesn’t take all that much of a change in our way of thinking to throw all of those facts into question. I don’t take this to mean that we ought to go around tip-toeing, fearing that the very ground beneath us might cease to exist, but it does mean that we ought to practice humility. We should allow for the possibility of being wrong, even – and especially –  when we’re absolutely sure of ourselves. In the field of medicine, I’ll be working with hard facts, proven procedures, and verified treatments. I trust that the concrete confidence of science will give me the necessary confidence to become a great doctor. At the same time, I trust that the perspective that I’ve gained from philosophy will keep me in check, reminding me that I am fallible, despite all my certainty. I have no doubt that our knowledge can amount to a great deal, like the prevention and treatment of disease. But I believe also that humility – acknowledging our personal limits, respecting the opinions of others, recognizing the possibility of alternative answers – is just as important, if not more.

Philosophy of mind is a particularly audacious branch of philosophy because it aims at questions that we might be fundamentally barred from answering. What does consciousness consist in?  How do we even begin to investigate something from which we can’t detach ourselves? Through the very process of observing consciousness, we invariably invoke consciousness. We can’t separate ourselves from our own mind in order to objectively observe its function, but we also can’t access someone else’s. This is certainly a cause for frustration. But rather than throwing our hands up and calling it quits, philosophers embrace this challenge and strive fervently for answers. We team up with cognitive science, psychology, neurobiology, computer science – a number of different disciplines in an attempt to solve the ultimate mystery. Hard questions don’t deter us. On the contrary, they invigorate us, excite us, and push us to test the limits of our capacity for understanding. As human beings, we are gifted with a mind so brilliant that it is unparalleled by anything else we’ve encountered. Though we’re still far from unraveling its mysteries, we nevertheless do justice to this gift by tenaciously facing some of the most daunting puzzles of our time.    

Wisdom, perhaps, is not knowing all the answers, but rather, having the right questions. What philosophy has given me is the ability to develop more questions for every answer that I come across. I believe that the best education is not the one that gives you a full and complete account of something, but instead, the one that teaches you how much more there is to learn.  

Thank you, everyone, for giving me the opportunity to share my reflections with you. I want to acknowledge my parents, who have always understood, supported, and encouraged my fascination with philosophy. I want to thank all of my amazing professors for making my time in the classroom more inspiring and intriguing than I could have imagined. And to my fellow graduating seniors, I wish you the best in all your future endeavors, and may wisdom always guide you on your journey.


 

Friday, May 18, 2012

Congratulations!

Dear Chelle-chelle,

Congratulations on your college graduation, congratulations on receiving the award and high honors, congratulations on all the A+s you've earned over the past 4 years, congratulations on getting into your favorite med school, and most of all, congratulations on becoming wiser and more mature...

As we turn the page, I hope you can take a minute to review the blue lines I wrote for you in the email below from 4 years ago.  They remain to be very true...  In addition, a few more lines for you to carry with you into the future -

1.  Learn to live a simplified life -- manage and organize all aspects of your life effectively.  Simplicity is the key to a clear mind!  Simplicity is the key to focus!!  Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication!!!

2.  Learn to live a modest life -- never become a slave of materialism.  Live a simple, comfortable life for yourself, not for anyone else.

3.  Learn to be precise in everything you do.  Being a doctor is not easy, it requires years of training to become absolutely disciplined and precise in everything you do at all times.

4.  Learn to cherish every opportunity in life and take full advantage of it.  Attached is the final transcript for your career at Tufts.  Read through each grade from each semester and think about what you've learned from it.

5.  Learn to develop real-world survival skills to support yourself financially.

6.  Always, always, always remember the importance of your family.  

Love,
Mom




----- Forwarded Message -----
From: Pei Tang <tang_pei@yahoo.com>
To: Pei Tang <tang_pei@yahoo.com>
Sent: Thursday, August 21, 2008 6:05 PM
Subject: The little bird's gotta fly...

Yeah, I know, the little bird's gotta fly...


We are heading out to Boston first thing tomorrow morning and will get to Tufts University by 1 pm on Saturday.  

We packed a piece of Naperville in our SUV, and that's all Michelle can hang on to as she moves on with her life. 

We also packed a copy of the 70-page book I wrote for Michelle when she graduated from high school.  As I read the ending of the book again, I realized it still accurately captures what I would say to her today -- 

Do you still remember the long conversations we had in the car during our road trips to NYU and Tufts? 
 
I told you to take good care of your health and safety.  Your future will depend on your physical and mental health.  You are the only one who can really take care of yourself.
 
I told you to focus on self-development to become a kind, loving, caring, considerate, tolerant, humble, passionate, disciplined and devoted person with bigger and deeper capacities to meet the challenges of the future.
 
I told you to keep challenging yourself to become a well-balanced and well-controlled person with a noble goal to contribute to human society in your lifetime.
 
I told you to truly understand the importance of managing human relationships.  Your IQ can only take you to a certain level.  Your EQ is what makes the difference in your ability to achieve success.
 
I told you to cherish and nurture friendships in life.  Good friends are the best resources to help you grow healthily into the future.
 
I told you to remember how much Mom, Dad, Grandma and Grandpa love you.  Never forget, life can take you to many unexpected places, but love can always bring you back home.
 
I told you to call me anytime when you need me.  I told you to call me anytime even if you don’t need me...   
 
Chelle-chelle, tomorrow is full of promises.  You are the only one who can realize your own dreams and fulfill the promises life has to offer.  Keep your dreams alive and pursue them with passion, determination, confidence, persistence, discipline and hard work.
 
There is so much more I should or need to tell you.  But I know it's time to let you go and let you fly...  Be safe, be wise and be well.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Happy Mother's Day

5/13/12
Michelle Zhang

Dear Mom,

I hope that you have had a good time in China with Grandpa!

It's Mother's Day, so I thought that I would write you an email to show you my appreciation for everything that you do for me: 

Thank you for being the most inspirational figure in my life. I know that I'm not always very responsive when you tell me about the strife that you went through in order to get to where you are, but I want you to know that I am always, always continually impressed. Just the fact that you had the courage to leave everything you knew in order to start a new life here in America is incredible. I can only hope to one day be half as courageous as you have been. I know that you have kept your head down and worked extraordinarily hard to get to where you are today, and this inspires me to develop a strong work ethic. It makes me realize that America still is a place where hard work pays off. 

Thank you for showing me that independence is a blessing. I know so few people who are so comfortable being on their own, but you have taught me that being independent is one of the greatest catalysts for personal development. I, like so many people around you, think it's amazing that sometimes you take your photography trips and explore the world on your own and love it that way. Because of the way that you have lived your life, I will always remember the importance of being independent. 

Thank you for always supporting me in everything I do. I know I threw you for a loop when I told you that I wanted to go into medicine, but look - now I'm really doing it! And I couldn't have done it without your guidance. Thank you for always being able to provide everything for me; I have never felt like I would have to compromise the quality of my education because of financial reasons. I know that a lot of other kids have, and I am thankful every day that I don't have to worry about that facet of my education. Fear not - I promise that I will do justice to the vast amount of money that you're about to spend on Boston University! 

Thank you for always trying to teach me. I know that your wisdom comes from years of experience and learning, and that I would do well to take your advice. Sometimes it seems like I don't listen, but the important stuff - I always remember it. I am thankful that I grew up with your guidance, but also with your trust. I think that the things that you have bestowed upon me are the truly important things, and the things that you have allowed me to do (which you haven't always agreed with) have resulted in me becoming my own person, with my own passions and direction and convictions. You have handled parenting perfectly, and I hope to prove that to you one day. 

I know that you have many doubts about your parenting. But trust me, you have done better than anyone else I know. I am so thankful to have you as my mom! Happy Mother's Day, I love you!

- Chelle Chelle

Sunday, May 6, 2012

My Trip to China: 5/5/12 to 5/13/12


5/4/12

If one day I tell you that my life involves no drama, that means I've stopped living actively!

So, here is the drama for today --

I was schedule to fly out of O'Hare at 12:08 PM today to arrive in Beijing tomorrow at 2:40 PM local time. I was then scheduled to fly with my friend at 7:25 PM local time to Yinchuan to visit and photograph one of the most amazing deserts in northwest China.

I woke up this morning and got this lovely travel alert from United Airlines saying that my flight wouldn't leave Chicago until 7:30 PM tonight and I wouldn't get to Beijing until 9:37 PM local time tomorrow. So, at the last minute, I had to run around frantically to cancel my trip to the desert, to have my friend book a hotel room for me for the night when I arrive in Beijing (as it would be too late to go anywhere else), to have my father book the hotel rooms for me in Beijing and to repack all my luggage so I don't need to bring all my camera gears...

Talking about making last minute decisions.... this is a classic example of how much we need to learn to adapt and be flexible. How much we need to learn to instantly covert the DEEP disappointment into positive energy and go forward like nothing even happened!!

Life is not easy on so many levels, I must say!  So, after months of planning and dreaming to go to the desert, I've finally realized that it won't happen this time!!

For now, I will be sitting at the O'Hare United Club for the next 7 hours. They did offer me a $30 travel voucher to buy lunch -- what a concept!!

The end of the drama was: we did not leave Chicago until 9:07 PM and did not land in Beijing until 11:03 PM local time...

Thursday, April 26, 2012

The 1x Disappointment -- Again!

Several of my friends suggested that I send the attached image to 1x.com for publication.  I did and was deeply disappointed.

This goes back to the question I asked myself several months ago -- why do we go out of our way to seek disappointment and rejection?  It's amazing how easily and quickly we forget the pain caused by the rejection, and we would do the same stupid thing over and over again...  So, there must be something we are seeking or hoping to get!  For me, it's the desire to be recognized for my hard work, for the mental exhaustion and physical challenge I've endured when producing these images.  The good news is -- I know who I am and what level of art work I can produce.  So, while being disappointed, I am not discouraged.  The pain will go away before I know it, and some day, I will be good enough to get my 2nd image published on 1x...


Saturday, April 14, 2012

The Winter Wonderland...

April 6, 2012 to April 10, 2012

The Canadian Rockies continue to amaze me with her endless charm and elegant beauty.  I have to say that I am in love with this place!

Many of my photography friends would not make multiple trips to such a commonly traveled place because they don't believe the images here are "unique" enough -- the place has been photographed by too many people for too many times.  But to me, I can't pursue pure photography and consider that as my sole objective.  I need to go to places where my heart desires, and photography is only a tool to help me record my love and my life...  So, here comes my reasoning for visiting this place 2 times within the past 6 months. 

Of course, there is drama on each of my trips.  But I really tried very hard to limit it to a manageable level this time.  Still, I had to wonder out early in the morning under -19C degree weather to catch the sunrise.  The sunset was surprisingly late here.  In early April, the sunset was already after 8 PM.  So, I just lived through 5 LONG days with 974 pictures.  Don't know when I will have time to process them.  The good news is -- I did follow Rudi's rigorous instructions on backing up my photos immediately after downloading, so thank god I did not lose any file this time!! 


                             Me and Absolute Nothingness...





Saturday, March 31, 2012

My Grandmother

By Michelle Zhang
June 5, 2011

“Michelle has got a frightening intensity,” my grandmother would tell my mother, “but this will make her into something extraordinary.” As one of the very successful doctors in China, my grandmother was, herself, anything but ordinary. A soldier for her convictions, she would tell my mother over and over that she had to go to college, despite the fact that the Cultural Revolution forbade such musings.

It wasn’t until I discovered medicine that my grandmother’s words finally started coming true. Over the course of my junior year in high school, medicine gradually crept into my life. “It’s a difficult path, and for a lot of people, it’s just not possible,” Grandma said to me. “But you have strength in your mind and goodness in your heart, and that will carry you through.” It’s been five years since I made the decision to pursue medicine, and to this day, my soul still burns for this field. To put my reasons into words would make for an incoherent mess, and would do them no justice. But if there was one person who understood my desire to go into medicine, it was my grandmother.

My grandmother told me that the human condition could be a frightening place, and that compassion was, quite possibly, the only thing that quieted our fears. She told me to always, without exception, approach others in kindness with the understanding that everyone is vulnerable. This vulnerability, I learned, is amplified tenfold in sickness. Though disease takes on innumerable guises – from a fractured wrist to a cancer diagnosis – there are some things that remain true about all illnesses: they magnify our fears, they play on our weaknesses, and they evoke a sense of uncertainty that no one wants to bear.

My grandmother never told me to become a doctor, but she told me to do what felt like home. She never told me to devote my life to this craft, but she told me to invest in something that I would always find valuable.

Grandma passed away on February 22nd, 2011, after 85 wonderful, fulfilling years of life. Among the things she left me was a heart-shaped paperweight bearing the characters “心想事成”. “That which the heart desires,” it says, “can always be accomplished.” It is because I know this to be true that I come to you, humbled by my limitations but confident in my abilities to learn, in the hopes that you will grant me the opportunity to heal others, just as my grandmother did. I don’t need to make her proud – she has always been proud of me. But I do want to do justice to the unfaltering faith that she had in me – and the best way I know how is to do justice to that inextinguishable passion that she left in my hands.