Tuesday, July 17, 2018

Dr. Michelle's Personal Statement


One more Personal Statement, and this time, it’s for her Fellowship application (for Pulmonary Critical Care).  She will complete her residency and start the fellowship program in June 2019.


I have always enjoyed asking questions, from abstract to practical, metaphysical to scientific, straightforward to unanswerable. In college, I loved studying philosophy because it challenged me to tackle seemingly impossible questions using a rigorous logical process. It trained me to think critically about data, deduction, and the means by which we arrive at conclusions. I carried this love of contemplation with me into medicine: I still seek out the places where questions are the most difficult, and for me, this is the intensive care unit. In many ways, the tasks of an intensivist – sifting through a wealth of data to extract relevant information, making cogent arguments for and against diagnoses, and deducing a coherent representation of the patient – are reminiscent of tasks in philosophical thought. These aspects of critical care led to my love of clinical ICU medicine, but as I’ve become more invested in clinical care, I’ve also become increasingly aware of the limits of what we can provide for our patients. Oftentimes, while taking care of the sickest patients, I found that I had more questions than answers. Through that process, I learned that one of the most empowering roles of being a physician is having the unique ability to take these questions from the bedside to the bench, and actually set out to find solutions.

As an intern, I saw a Vietnamese patient in the emergency department who had a history of lung adenocarcinoma, which he believed to have been completely treated in his home country. His physical exam revealed multiple bony masses suspicious for widespread metastasis, and I explained to him my fear that his cancer had progressed. He expressed that even if this were the case, he was certain that we would be able to heal him. I saw him again two months later in the ICU for respiratory failure, and within 24 hours, he had passed away from complications of his cancer. He had trusted us to have the means to cure his condition, and this made painfully clear to me the fact that our current lung cancer treatments remain inadequate. This experience brought new meaning to my research in the lab, which focuses on pro-neoplastic and anti-neoplastic factors in lung adenocarcinoma. I have completed several projects independently using techniques including gene knockdown, cell proliferation assays, immunohistochemistry, protein electrophoresis, and RNA analysis. Currently, I am working on elucidating the connection between exercise and lung cancer on a molecular basis through investigation of myokines, which I have shown to decrease proliferation of lung cancer cells in vitro. My time in the lab has taught me how to engage with basic science, from developing hypotheses based on existing evidence, to designing, troubleshooting, and executing experiments, to presenting my findings at national conferences in a way that emphasizes their impact to the scientific community. Bench science has the ability to decode disease processes on a cellular level and subsequently guide translational research to develop new therapeutics that might someday help patients like mine. It has the potential to significantly broaden the impact that we have on our patients, and this is why I hope to continue pursuing it as a part of my career.

Outside of the lab, I developed a quality improvement project to increase use of targeted temperature management (TTM) following cardiac arrest in our hospital. One of my first patients in the ICU was a young woman who had suffered a cardiac arrest during a procedure and subsequently developed diffuse anoxic brain injury and herniation, resulting in brain death. During our time taking care of her, there had been no discussion about neuroprotective measures. This precipitated the question: was there something that I could affect on a systems level in order to prevent this from happening in the future? In response, I developed a quality improvement project where I designed and completed a retrospective analysis of in-hospital cardiac arrests at our institution, which demonstrated a poor rate of TTM implementation. I worked in collaboration with neurology, cardiology, critical care, and nursing to develop interventions for improvement, including incorporation of a neuroprotection lecture in our ICU didactics. My project was well-received by program leadership and became a core quality improvement project for junior residents, and I collaborated with a chief resident to create a morbidity and mortality conference centered around my data. I will continue this project as a mentor for rising junior residents with the goal of standardizing post-cardiac arrest neuroprotection and prognostication for our patients. As this project has unfolded, I have gained an appreciation for how the moments in which we feel helpless as clinicians can catalyze meaningful change, and in this way, become empowering rather than disheartening.

Intellectual curiosity has always been an integral part of the way that I interact with the world. In medicine, this has manifested itself as a deep appreciation for the complexity of pulmonary pathophysiology and critical care. It has also led me to a number of research experiences, which have taught me that efforts toward discovery and innovation are absolutely essential to the delivery of optimal patient care. Going forward, I am looking for a program that will prepare me for a successful academic career involving basic and translational work in pulmonary disease. I hope to find a program that will encourage me to ask the right questions, and strong mentorship that will help me turn those questions into meaningful research endeavors.

Saturday, July 14, 2018

Tuesday Night

Clouds from an ordinary, imperfect night.  There was no memorable journey or exotic scenery, but still, the beauty was there for us to notice and cherish...

July 10, 2018
7:58pm
The Nevada Desert