Monday, December 28, 2015

My holiday season so far...

The holiday season has been quiet and productive.  I tried to better manage my relationship with my phone, meditate at least twice a day, let go of many unimportant things in my head, limit social activities, let my mind and heart settle down -- it feels wonderful.  In addition to the "soul-cleansing" process, I also finished reading 2 big books (412 and 380 pages respectively) written by a photographer friend.  He is a professional photographer, a Canadian Chinese living in Alberta, Canada.  In fact, I will be joining his photography tour to the Canadian Rockies at the end of January.

I have to tell you that, by reading through all these pages, I am once again deeply touched by people's unwavering passion and devotion to what they love to do.  I am once again convinced that you can only be great at something that you passionately LOVE. 

I can relate to so much of what he described in the books about his long, difficult journey of photography.  The detailed planning for a trip, the anxiety, the fear, the excitement, the disappointment, the unexpected, the rain, the wind, the suffering, the sun, the moon, the stars and clouds...  Every little element - good, bad or ugly - adds to the last joyful moment when the shutter is pressed.        

I clearly realize that I am not nearly as accomplished as he is in photography.  In fact, I have come to terms with the fact that I am so far behind so many people in photography.  I clearly understand and accept human differences.  To me, the true value of living a fulfilled life is to always do your very best, never stop learning, AND be happy with who you are!

Oh, I almost forgot to mention -- both books are written in Chinese, which is pretty unbelievable (for him to write so well in Chinese).  Honestly, this is the first time I read so much Chinese in 28 years.  I really, truly, thoroughly enjoyed reading all his colorful stories -- thank goodness I can still see color through Chinese, haha!

Saturday, December 26, 2015

The Glow

Saturday, December 19, 2015

Canadian Rockies: 4-8-2012

I took these photos during my second trip to the Canadian Rockies almost 4 years ago.  Believe it or not, I managed to let these pictures sit in my laptop folder for all these years because I never had the courage to share them -- I was told over and over again that this type of images have no photographic value... because they were taken in broad daylight AND with my little SONY point-n-shoot camera!  Oh well, as I reflect deeper on the true meaning of life, I am convinced that the price tag of every single picture should be determined by the significance of your own experience, not some technical parameters defined by others!  So, go out, capture beauty freely -- with or without the best lights. 

Did I tell you that the Canadian Rockies is THE place I love the most???  As I am getting ready to take my third trip to the Canadian Rockies in the deep, deep winter next month, please allow me to share these images with you today.


Canadian Rockies
Alberta, Canada

April 8, 2012
 




Sunday, December 13, 2015

Gateway Arch

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Happy Thanksgiving!

Sunday, November 22, 2015

The Rockies (2)

The flight back to Chicago yesterday was more than horrendous!!!  An 1 hour 53 minutes trip turned into a 10.5 hours saga, and we didn't get home until 11:30pm...

I don't think I should bore you with all the details, but basically due to impossible landing conditions in Chicago, we landed in the cornfield of Cedar Rapids, Iowa and stayed there for 5 hours.  When we finally got the permission to fly back to Chicago and land in B19, the pilot literally over-shot the plane and broke the jet-bridge.  We sat on the plane at O'Hare terminal B for 2 hours to get "enough" people to help us move the plane to a different gate - what a trip!!!

Well, please allow me to share a few "sugar-water" photos from this trip.  They have nothing to do with Photography!

Rocky Mountain National Park, CO
November 15-21, 2015




Friday, November 20, 2015

The Rockies

No, it's not the Canadian Rockies... but nonetheless, Rocky Mountains in Colorado is also an amazing place.

The trip started with us running into an unexpected winter snowstorm in Colorado on Sunday.  We initially planned to spend 4 days in Aspen visiting the ever-so-famous Maroon Bells.  After 4 hours of driving from Denver to Aspen, at the hotel, we were painfully told that the road leading to Maroon Bells had been closed due to heavy snow.  I looked at the hotel receptionist in total disbelieve...  As many dramas as I've been through over the years, never once was there a need for me to alter my travel plan or pick another spot on the fly.  Well, I did it this time, I knew right there and then that we had to leave Aspen and drive to Rocky Mountains the next morning.

Heavy snow continued throughout the night -- we had no place to go, so stayed at the hotel and got drunk!!

Monday morning, we woke up in a pure white world.  Huge snowflakes danced down to greet us and cover us...  It was in this silver world, we drove through the treacherous, winding mountain roads for 7 hours and, finally, arrived at the Rocky Mountain National Park -- a true winter wonderland!!!

When it comes to risk-taking, many people don't really know me!  It was late in the afternoon, and snow was still coming down hard.  I decided to go up to the mountains to check out a few places.  Michelle warned me once, twice and three times as to why and how this was not a logical act.  I had to literally tell her: "Michelle, your safely is my #1 priority.  So, please sit back, relax and enjoy the scenery and the excitement!"

We ended Monday safe and sound. Tuesday was a beautiful but COLD day.  A lot of physical suffering running out in the snow and on the mountains... But all in all, out in the nature is the best mental therapy for me -- no concern, no worry, I was surrounded by nothing but purity...

I initially planned to go back out in the dark to take a few night shots.  Strong winds started later in the afternoon and increased to over 50mph.  Once we sat down by the fireplace inside of our hotel room, started sipping wine and drinking hot chocolate, I had NO courage to go back out to the cold to do whatever the "right thing" was. 

Tuesday night was probably the windiest night I have ever experienced.  The wind reached over 60mph, and the entire world seemed to be upside down!!!  Again, I was too afraid to go out early in the morning to photography the sunrise... And that ended all my photo ops for this trip.

We headed south to Colorado Springs on Wednesday.  Strong winds continued, and it was just about to throw my SUV off the highway. Got to Colorado Springs, visited Garden of the Gods, which was uneventful.  Then a piece of old memory reemerged and I decided to drive up to Pikes Peak -- 14,114 ft at the summit.  The prospect of the potential risk, excitement, and the spectacular view at the mountain top in the white snow made us smile...  We headed out to Pikes Peak highway.  When we finally drove up to the base... do I still need to continue with the story???

I have to say that, in many ways, this has been a special trip.  So many disappointments, and yet, we embraced the unpredictable!  I love carefully calculated risks, and that's what makes life FUN!!!

P.S. Thought I was done, but I am not.  One more piece of drama before the trip is fully completed tomorrow - JUST got a lovely email from United warning me about flight cancellations and/or delays tomorrow due to winter storms in the Midwest - yeah, go figure!!!

Monday, November 2, 2015

The World of WeChat (微信) -- Continued...

Weekend has been very quiet -- living in social isolation sometimes can be a wonderful thing!!!

I survived the entire weekend without WeChat.  My friend and I went to the city to visit another friend, then Rudi and I went out to dinner with my brother's family.  We actually called my bother to settle on a place to eat -- everything went back to low-tech communication channels... It felt great.

To give you a clue of my reflections on life with or without WeChat, I bought the book Walden by Henry David Thoreau.  This is considered by many to be the masterpiece of reflective simple living.

Looking forward to reading the book!

In the meantime, the first thing I did this morning was to go to IT to get my old phone back.  Came home tonight and found out that my WeChat is still in my hands -- everything I wrote, everything I have saved, everything I meant to delete, and... everything to be read and responded.... they are ALL BACK -- how frightening!  Wow, for the first time in 2 years, I have the opportunity to choose my relationship with WeChat -- what would I choose to do???

Stay tuned, and trust that I will do the right thing!!

Saturday, October 31, 2015

The World of WeChat (微信)

I should title this email as "The World without WeChat"

It is hard to believe that it's been almost 2 years since I got dragged into "The World of WeChat."  Even though I passionately resisted it at the very beginning (as evidenced by the email below), over the past few years, WeChat has become a significant way of life for many people including myself -- very unfortunate, but also irreversible. 

So, the sad story for today is -- my company decided to take away my perfectly beautiful iPhone 5s and give me a brand new iPhone 6s.  Why???  Because somehow they believed it would be GOOD for me.

It took IT all day to set up my new phone.  For the entire day, I failed to function at my full capacity because everything I needed was on my phone... When my lovely new phone finally arrived at my desk, I shockingly discovered that my WeChat was GONE!!  As painful as it seemed at the moment, after a few hours of digesting the reality, I've gained a whole new perspective:  when you know the VERY FEW important things in life, you can easily let go of everything else -- it's just that simple...   

I feel totally liberated now!



From: Pei Tang <tang_pei@yahoo.com>
To: Pei Tang <tang_pei@yahoo.com>
Sent: Thursday, November 21, 2013 10:58 PM
Subject: The world of WeChat (微信)
 


I feel the need to make a record on my history book about a significant event in my life -- I have finally entered the World of WeChat.  After 48 hours of testing the water, I have confirmed that yes, it is indeed a world of chaos -- it sucks your brain and consumes your life like you would not believe...

The truth is, many of my good friends kindly recommended WeChat to me a LONG time ago.  I declined only because I knew it would undoubtedly interfere with my Zen world.  But after my trip to Mongolia, it occurred to me that this would be an effective way for me to be in touch with my friends in China.  So, before opening the WeChat account, I decided to only add 2 of my friends from China.

Well, as we all know, life rarely happens according to plans...  What I learned over the past 48 hours was -- if you get into a group that you don't want to be in, suck it up -- you're on your own!  Yeah, life sucks, isn't it???

So, for those long-term 微信 lovers, this is for you:

国 庆大典上,走来第57个民族。主持人这样解说:现在走过来的是微信方阵。他们身穿睡衣,肩扛枕头,左手手机,右手充电宝,身后背着一锅心灵鸡汤,胸前挂着 佛经和养生秘方,个个转发着正能量,自吟着立志经典和闷骚段子,目光呆滞,神情麻木,个别的还在跳大神。主席:“同志们辛苦了!” 微信方阵响亮回答:“主席,天安门 WiFi 密码是多少?”


Monday, October 19, 2015

Less stuff, more happniess...

I was driving Rudi to the airport yesterday morning when we listened to Graham Hill's Life Edited on NPR. 

Graham was only 28 when he sold his start-up company and became a multi-millionaire.  He immediately bought a lot of STUFF, then realized that all the STUFF he bought did not make him happier than before. So, he started traveling the world to tell stories of sustainability and minimalism.  I am a true believer of minimalism.  I totally agree that less stuff in life will give us more freedom, and simplicity in life will give us more time -- freedom and time is what allows us to be fully present to enjoy what's around us and be happy!!

Here is the TED talk he gave back in 2011.

Friday, October 16, 2015

Acadia: October 2015

It's been exactly four years since I visited Acadia National Park with Michelle.  Still remember that Friday night in 2011 when we drove from Boston to Acadia -- heavy rain came down really hard and the narrow roads in the dark were pretty challenging to drive... 

I was in Boston for work last week so we spent a long weekend at Acadia -- to smell the ocean, listen to the waves, watch the nightly sky, and most of all, enjoy the fall colors.  It was a very sweet, nice and quiet weekend.  Brought all my camera gears, but only took 3 pictures with it -- literally 3 pictures of the same frame -- that's it!!  iPhone is taking over my photography career -- thank goodness to Steve Jobs, haha!

Picture 1 = Michelle and I in October 2011 at Acadia

Picture 2 = Michelle and I in October 2015 at Acadia (almost the same spot)

Picture 3 = Nightly Sky - Acadia: 10/10/2015





Sunday, September 27, 2015

My version of the 2015 Supermoon Lunar Eclipse

It was Chinese Moon Festival today, and we also had a supermoon lunar eclipse. It was 1982 when this combination happened last time, and it won't happen again until 2033. Wow!!

As always, a full moon makes me restless simply because I love it. When it comes to photographing a perfect full moon, the challenge is horrendous, as we are at the mercy of Mother Nature! After many ups and downs throughout the day today, the thick clouds finally broke out right before the eclipse, so here are the two shots reflecting my never-ending fascination with the full moon...

Naperville, IL 
September 27, 2015



 

Saturday, September 19, 2015

27 years...

It just occurred to me that I have been in this country for exactly 27 years!!  I came to Chicago 27 years ago today, 9/19/1988 -- still remember the chilly air hitting me when I first came out of O'Hare airport... It was the first wake-up call for me in the foreign land.

Wow, 27 long years -- much longer than the time I ever spent in China.  So many ups and downs and memories in this piece of land that no longer seems so foreign to me...  Regardless of all the craziness and shortfalls, I am convinced that we've created a much better life for Michelle -- for her to live freely, happily, and do what she absolutely loves to do!

As for me, too much is going through my head right now, don't even know where to start.  So, please allow me to quote a few lines for myself to live by for the next 27 years -:))

--  Life is too short to be small.

--  Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect.

--  Anyone who live within their means suffers from a lack of imagination.
 

Dreams from Countryside...

Chong Li (崇礼) is a small rural village about 3 hours drive from Beijing. It is so "original" that I couldn't help to fall in love with the sweetness of this untouched piece of land.

As the host city of the 2022 Winter Olympics, Chong Li will undoubtedly lose its originality and serenity... It will be touched, deeply, and modified significantly...

Chong Li (崇礼), China
September 7, 2015
 




Sunday, August 30, 2015

Hot Dogs

Hot Dogs
Colin Powell

One of my favorite things to do is simply to walk along Park Avenue in my hometown, New York, on a beautiful spring or fall afternoon.  On my walk, I always stop at the corner of a numbered cross street, where a Sabrett hot dog cart manned by an immigrant will always be stationed.  I love those hot dogs, affectionately known to New Yorkers as "dirty water dogs" because they sit in a pot of near-boiling water.

I always must have one of them, adorned with mustard and that unique red onion relish I've only found in New York.  It takes me back to my youth, when they only cost ten cents.

I even found time for it when I was Secretary of State.  I would come out of my suite at the Waldorf-Astoria and stroll north up Park Avenue or perhaps over on Fifth Avenue.  In those days, I was surrounded by bodyguards, and there were usually a couple of New York City police cruisers rolling alongside to keep me from being whacked as I walked.  With my entourage, I would walk up to the nearest hot dog peddler and order my hot dog.  One poor guy, put off by the attention and all the police and guards, immediately stopped preparing my hot dog, thrust his hands up, and shouted, "I've got a green card, I've got a green card!"  I assured him all was well and this was all about me, not about him.

I still have to have a hot dog on my walk, but all the bodyguards and police cars are gone, as is the Waldorf suite.  Shortly after leaving State, I went up to a hot dog stand on Fifth Avenue and ordered my standard fare.  As the attendant was finishing up my hot dog, a look of recognition came across his face, but he struggled to pull up my name.  "I know you," he said, "I see you on television."  Then, as he handed me the hot dog, it hit him.  "Ah, yes, of course, you're General Powell."  I handed him the money, but he refused to take it.  "No, General, no, you don't owe me anything.  I've been paid.  America paid me.  I will never forget where I came from, but now I am here, I am an American.  I've been given a new life, and so have my children.  Thank you, please enjoy the hot dog."

I thanked him and continued up the avenue, feeling a warm glow as the recognition came over me once again.  What a country... still the same country that gave my immigrant parents the open door and welcome ninety years ago.  We must never forget that has been our past; it is certainly our present and future.   

Saturday, August 29, 2015

The Gift of a Good Start

The Gift of a Good Start
Colin Powell

During my time as Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff, I often met senior foreign military leaders during my travels.  Sometime during our initial meetings, I came to expect this question to come up: "When did you graduate from West Point?"  Apparently they were still of the view that a West Point commission was the only way to get to the top.

"I didn't go to West Point," I replied, "as much as that would have been an honor."

An embarrassed cough usually followed, and then came the next question: "Oh, well, where did you go?"

The answer was the City College of New York, in Harlem, not far from where I was born.  I was commissioned through CCNY's ROTC program -- the first ROTC graduate, the first black, and the youngest ever to become Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff. 

"It's a great school," I told them, "open to everyone." I'd usually go on to explain that CCNY was founded in 1847 and was then called the Free Academy.  It was the first fully open, free college in America -- a daring innovation in those days, as its president, a West Pointer, Dr. Horace Webster, declared on the opening day in 1849:

"The experiment is to be tried, whether the children of the people, the children of the whole people, can be educated, and whether an institution of the highest grade, can be successfully controlled by the popular will, not by the privileged few."

Time passes and I show up on campus in February 1954.  I'm not sure how I got in.  I was in no way an academic star.  My high school grades were below the CCNY's admission standards.  Was I given a preference?  I don't know.

At CCNY I was initially an engineering major, but quickly dropped it.  Later I settled on geology, but by then I had discovered ROTC.  I fell in love with ROTC, and with the Army.

After four-and-a-half no-cost, undistinguished academic years, CCNY administration took pity on me and allowed my ROTC A grades to remain in my college average.  This brought my average up to a smidgen above 2.0, high enough to quality for graduation.  To the great relief of the faculty, I was passed off to the U.S. Army.

Nearly 60 years later, I am considered one of the CCNY's greatest sons.  I have received every award the school can hand out; an institute at CCNY has named after me - the Colin L. Powell Center for Leadership and Service; and I have been titled a Founder and Distinguished Visiting Professor.  Many of my professors have to be spinning in their graves over all that...

I love telling the story of my rocky education career to youngsters.  My point is, it isn't where you start in life that counts, it is where you end up.  So, believe in yourself, work hard, study hard, believe that anything is possible, and always do your best.  Remember that your past is not necessarily your future.
     

Sunday, August 23, 2015

The Street Sweeper

The Street Sweeper
Colin Powell

Some years ago, there was a human interest segment about a street sweeper on the evening news.  I think he worked in Philadelphia.  He was a black gentleman and swept streets the old-fashioned way, with one of those wide, stiff bristle brooms and a wheeled garbage can.  He had a wife and several children and lived in a modest home.  It was a loving family, and he had high ambitions for his children.  He enjoyed his job very much and felt he was providing a worthwhile service to his community.  He had only one professional ambition in life and that was to get promoted to drive one of those mechanized street sweepers with big round brushes.

He finally achieved his ambition and was promoted to driving a street sweeping machine.  His wife and children were proud of him.  The television piece closed with him driving down the street; a huge smile on his face.  He knew who he was and what he was.

I run that video piece through my mind every few months as a reality check.  Here is a man happy in his work, providing an essential service for his community, providing for his family, who love and respect him.  Have I been more successful in what is truly important in life than he has been?  No, we have both been fortunate.  He has touched all the important bases in the game of life.  When we are ultimately judged, despite my titles and medals, he may have a few points on me, and on a lot of others.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Michelle's Personal Statement


Personal Statement
Internal Medicine Residency Program

After famously becoming the world Jeopardy champion, IBM’s supercomputer Watson went on to “medical school”. He memorized textbooks, medical journals, and databases, and eventually earned himself the title of “World’s Greatest Diagnostician”. Sometimes, medicine seems so highly algorithmic that it’s easy to see how a robot might outperform a human: it’s consistent, it’s objective, and most importantly, it doesn’t forget. However, I firmly believe in the unique advantage of the human factor, which is especially evident in Internal Medicine. Our diagnoses can be serpentine and elusive, and our management is complex and multi-factorial. Many of our patients are chronic, requiring robust personal skills to build the quintessential trust that transforms a doctor into a healer. As primary caretakers both inside and outside of the hospital, we are uniquely positioned to help our patients shape their experience of illness and recovery. In all of this, there is undoubtedly a special space into which our humanity enters, and it is in this space that I find myself belonging.
 
I admire the ardent debate that transpires between brilliant colleagues, each reflecting on intuition and experience rather than a set of algorithmic rules. I’m excited by the curiosity that arises when I'm sitting at the junction of normal physiology and aberrant pathophysiology, inquiring into how one becomes the other. I’m amazed by that heart-pounding moment when my patient is riding the line between respiratory distress and respiratory failure, when only an inexplicable clinical instinct can act as an impetus for quick action. I value the art of gauging someone's understanding, which allows me to send a patient home not only with a prescription, but also a comprehension of his condition. I am humbled by instances of breaking bad news, when a patient’s vulnerability brings out my own and I am reminded of that common human thread that runs between us. There is always a place for acknowledging the vast distance between physician and patient – and respecting the differences therein – but nonetheless conveying that we are in this together.

These parts of Internal Medicine resonate with me deeply, and I am well prepared to engage with them. I spent my college years studying philosophy, passionately learning and debating about topics ranging from morality to metaphysics. By delving into philosophical arguments, dissecting them and reconstructing them, I developed a sharp intellectual intuition and a strong aptitude for critical thinking, both of which I use now to navigate through puzzles of disease and therapy. Through my love of writing – both as a hobby and an outlet – I’ve learned the importance of narrative and its role in helping us understand the human experience. Writing has afforded me insight into my own thoughts, behaviors, and motivations, and having this deeper understanding of myself has made me better at empathizing with my patients. Working with low-income and homeless populations through volunteer projects has taught me a great deal about relating to others - by sitting down with these folks and just listening, I’ve learned how to invest myself into another person's story and cherish it as a chance to understand a life vastly different from my own. The art of listening well, I believe, is an essential part of bridging that immense gap between doctor and patient.

With this background and perspective, I have built an excellent foundation for becoming an exceptional Internal Medicine resident. I am looking for a program with strong physician mentors that encourage intellectual curiosity and independent thinking - two traits that I value in my colleagues and in myself. At the same time, I greatly value camaraderie and a lively culture that will serve as a reminder for us to retain those distinctly human characteristics that make us so good at what we do.